May 15th, 2023

This handsome, sweet, funny guy has his scans today. We are at the ferry and on our way. We welcome your prayers and positive thoughts for a clear and clean scan; for tomorrow, and beyond. We know prayer works! We also know that God continues to hold Karson in His arms and He has this. But these scans… They don’t seem to be getting any easier ~ for either of us.
I’m not sure if it’s that he was re-diagnosed this month three years ago, or what it is, but waiting for this one has been hard. I rarely cry, and if I do it’s usually when I’m angry ~ but lately I cry over anything and everything; I’m so anxious; and I am exhausted. Karson has been so sensitive as well. Things that would never bother him are really bothering him now. We are so blessed ~ I try to remember this; but my anxiety doesn’t understand.
We will be sure to share the results with you as soon as we have them.
“People often don't realize there's a difference between general anxiety and scanxiety. For those of us with scanxiety, it's not about what might happen. It's about what did happen. Telling a person with scanxiety to "just let go because worry won't help" or "the things you worry about will never happen" can not only be confusing to us but it can be damaging. Because the things that cause our anxiety already happened. For us, it's not so much about worrying.
It's about remembering.” ~ Unknown
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